even though the clock is ticking away into my sleeping time, im still busy blogging away..i guess i must blog regularly to share with friends, esp LIFO babes, about what is happening during my holidays so that they won't miss me that much..hhahaha..come on guys!dun deny it, i know ur gonna miss me n my lameness!as for me, i will also miss u guys too!thats lyk a duh thing la!we shall and we will meet up one fine day during the holidays rite??!!

anyhoo, just if ur curious,im blogging in the toilet while shitting!woots!the wonders of a lappy and wireless!its quite fun actuali..but tiring la!hahhaa

back to what's happening..

i have just finish my exams..and it was...SUCKY!hahaha..tats lyk nothing suprising..let me share with u how i found each one of the papers..

• Stats - Manageable..but i lost quite a lot of marks due to my carelessness..predicted grade :C
  
• MacroE - i kinda forgot how it was..but my predicted grade : C
  
• POA - quite fun doing it..but i doubt i gt any of them right..when they asked for a balance sheet, i gave them an unbalanced one!wad u expect sia???predicted grade : C/D
• POM - don't bother asking..i wanted to go out as soon as i read the qns! predicted grade : passed(coz must take sub-paper!)

as u can see from above, i expect to get a lower GPA than last year even though last yr's GPA sux..maybe im fated to be a housewife..coz i failed in every single thing that i do..hahaha..with an average grade of C, i don't think i will get to go to Orlando even though i realli2 want to..hmm..nvm..lets just go with the flow..

what have i plan for the holidays..hmm..the only exciting thing i am looking forward to is my KL-Genting trip..its either with my parents or wif Adi's family n friends..im fine with anything..so we'll see which one is the chosen one..i know my parents still considering whether to go onot coz of my 3 feline siblings..hahaha..why doesnt the govt have passports for pets??!!

i hope that u guys have a great holiday too!!dun forget to buy me souvenirs!!

posted by nADiA JuMpJuMpJuMp at 12:29 AM

Tick tock tick tock tick tock..

The clock is ticking and time is running. Running out from me. No matter how hard I run after. Age is 21 and 64 years are left expected on me. Minus 5 years for smoking. And that's 59 years. 21 years has passed. Only after i turned the big 2-0, that I realised the importance of time. Time does not exist for us. We exist with the rule bounded by time. We exist for a reason. Time will always be infinite. Regardless if we are dead. Or not. How many of us have been enslaved by the power of time? How many of us fear the threats time shall make on our lives. Life is unpredictable. And I'm talking nonsense.

Why am I talking about time? Time is making me frantic. Time is the mother of my worries now. Time is the basis of all my paranoias. My life is full of questions. Questions that start with when. When will I work? When will you finish study? When will you lead a life on your own? When I will realise my dream? Life is full of whens. Some I have answered. Like when will I be independent. Some I still wondering about the answer.

People say time will tell. Forgive me but I ain't got the time to wait. Action reaction. Cause and effect. I need to make the cause before the effects will start by themselves. The important question is... How will I make the cause? I need to choose it right. 21 years had passed. 3 times of that await me. 2 times of that will I be a slave for society. Slavery not in its truest meaning. But being expected to perform. Can I choose not? Yeah... And I will be better off dead.

Things are looking brighter. But what exactly am I looking for? I need some adventure. I don't wish for a clockwork life. I need to make changes. To my life. But first, it starts with me. Too many flaws I have. Too many things I have to make right with my own self. The desire is there. But where is the passion to keep it burning? I've always been a pessimist. And I've always used this damn good brain of mine to take the easy way out. Should I keep doing like this? Time is running and I've got no options. I need to change. For me. For myself. Always.

posted by Adi at 5:01 PM

yesterday when i suprised my mum with a brand new 5610 music express phone as a gift for no apparent reason, my mum tot that it was a dummy phone..lyk wtf?!!think soo lowly of me?!im nadia afterall..i was quite disappointed at first but after seeing her reaction, im quite happy..after that, her naggings seem to have decrease quite a bit..hahaha..thank god..

so how was vday eh?i heard that some ppl have quite a blast n some was just spending their day lyk any normal day..mine?hmm..it was quite ok..more of a fun normal day..not much of the lovey dovey stuff that we used to do..i sure miss it but i dunno..maybe, we just dun do it anymore..started off wif a rush pizzahut treat..missed a movie due to a physical recall at woodlands firestation..ulk for about 30 mins..watch tv in his room for 2 hrs plus waiting for him to return..went to bugis n town area to eat and buy adidas bags(our vday presents to each other..or so we thought..)..went to tmmsq to see justin regarding my off days and went home..told u it was nothing romantic..it was just fun..and a lil bit of anger..haha..i saw many girls carrying bouquet of flowers..PDAS..it was sooo uweekkk!!i mean, as my mother say it, valentine's day is everyday to people who reali love each other..not just on feb 14..

about us..in case u guys wonder wad happened and was will happen to us..keep on wondering..coz im still doing just that..and the following song lyrics explain just that..

Ada Cinta

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan
Juga dalam sedu sedan

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
Padahal yang terasa
Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam
Cinta.. terasa ada…

hahhaa..u guys shud listen to it if u haven't..very sweet song..even tho its quite emo, its reali how i feel now..i think its how we feel..we r still doubting one another rite?hmm..even though i dunno when u will read this post, lets clear it babe..coz i wanna be lyk the old tyms..don't u?btw, sorry to the non- malays..i will find another song for u soon..coz u seriously dun wan me to translate for u..haha..

exams..its next week and im officially screwed for my exams..so i might as well get some slp..NOW!i seriously need to get my dosage of LIFO, noni, dawn, topmaners, cats, parents, fav 6 and of coz U!

posted by nADiA JuMpJuMpJuMp at 12:39 AM

even though today's IT test practically sux, i kinda like today!

Me, Renny & Hid studied after school today n it was definitely one of the most fruitful revision ever!it was, AWEEEEEESOme!hahaha..even though i tot that i might get a little distracted, i wasnt at all!i think i kinda got over the breaking up episode..hah!nadia survived!even though it was a very short tym..sorry to disappoint u sadists out der..but we r still great friends..anyhoo, i covered 4 topics of stats in 4 hrs!it was quite enjoyable actuali..knowing that u can do it n all..me n Renny agreed that its bcoz massie wasnt der to distract us!hahaha..kidding!:P

After that, me n Renny went to town to check out 'cupcake's' bdae present..it was lyk a girls' day out!being single isnt tat bad esp wen u have ppl who reali n truly care abt u to keep u sane n happy!ppl hu wudnt hurt u as n wen dey feel lyk doing so..tats wad love is all about, love!anyhoo, i did some shopping myself!bought 4 items for 37 bucks!wad a steal!!n all fit well!hahahaa..damn excited..me n renny decided to get the cute heels with our next pay!hahah..i shall post a pic of them wen i buy it..hee..aft that i head to marina square to take my powder that i forgotten to bring home..it was damn packed n im lyk super glad that im nt werking today!aft that i got lost at boat quay alone n reached home ard 9!lyk wtf!


tmr i have a study date with renny den aft that i have a date wif a friend..more lyk a movie outing la..not date..its coz he wanna watch a movie so i just teman..dunno wad we watching..haha..anyhoo, ppl, pls tell me if u need me okie?im lyk super free on my holidays!but i have some plans planned..lyk my genting/kl trip!tats so F*cked up la!but urs truly has been approved as a Relief teacher..so probably will be ahem ahem, 'teaching'!hahaha..MISS NADIA..i kinda loike it!

ok!i have stats to do and i have to play my 'guitar'!haha..

i will count to ten..den i shall walk away from your life..

posted by nADiA JuMpJuMpJuMp at 10:46 PM

The last one from me. After which I will hide in seclusion. A lot of decisions I've made. A lot of decisions turned awry. This will be the decision which will atone for much of the past. Yeah... It's aggressive. I know. It had to be that way. Can't let a single bit of hindrance be in the way. In the way of my conquest for absolute power, dominance. Been treated like shit. Not given any respect. Been seen for the colour I am. Will try my best now to be superior over the arseholes that most of you all are. Not you my friends. Them. And their attitude.

And so it was. A levels that I'm gonna retake. What you may say? But that's what I gotta do. I've studied back then. But not study hard nor well. The basics are there. All I need now is to polish them up. If knowledge can be counted, currently, I know about 90% of my syllables. With most of them being 50-50 chances of being right. Lacking the finesse to finish it off, I will study hard and study smart to be 100% sure and right of the syllables. This time round, there won't be any mercy.

I've looked back to my secondary school days. Many of my friends were there. Some were smart and hardworking, some were just smart, and some were hardworking. Now, those who are hardworking managed to pull it off. Get into NUS, NTU, SMU and even one, King's College. One took double degree. Can be said that my class of 407 is a really smart one. Me included. But why am I here? And they are there? No use for people to tell me I am smart when I don't have the results to show for. Well.. This is the time to find out if it is just wishful thinking on my side. That I'm smart or no.

What is love? Love is unknown. Go explore them, love. And you will find that I'm just nothing. I can't give you love as how you want it to be. Love will be reduced to nothing. When you don't have spare changes in your pocket. Let me be the man I want to be first. To take care of my own self. Before I can take the responsibility of others. Sorry for being poor. But that's the facts of life. That we can never ignore.

Hey friend, you have been nice to me. Really, I appreciate it. The times we spent together. But I tell you that I love you. But you will never believe me. Losing you will be a pain. But it's momentary. I will find you when Adi's back. Rise high above the ashes.

posted by Adi at 4:13 PM

yup..the coughing bug has definitely hit me n ive been sick for the entire week..even tho i know that i can get better if i popped some pills..i simply refuse coz at a tym lyk this feeling sick is definitely making me feel better..ironic on my part?hmm..

i so wanna tok abt renny's bdae party at changi but currently i dun have the mood for it..its superb btw..its a waste that u got wasted renny!hmm..better luck next year..haha

i have an announcement to make and even tho i dun have to tell the whole world, i wan to so ppl will stop asking me wad happen yada yada yada...im single for the year or longer..yup..me n my part time blogger have taken a time-out so that he can study..or so he said..so much for the most useful couple at renny's party huh?!

actuali, i can quite feel it coming n up till now, i dunno what's the real status..but heck, whatever it is, i hope that he will do well for his As n his future..with or w/o me..:)im nt feeling tat bummed up..just sheer disappointment but i can n will live wif it..as he said, in life, a person must be selfish..n i will take this opportunity to explore my social circle..in lame man's term-DATE!!haha.. of coz he's sumone dear to me but if he choose to go his own path alone, i will have to go to my own path alone or with sumone else..life cant possibly hang der for me just bcoz he wanna leave..i used to be very dependent on him but tym n again, i will find myself having to be independent as i have no one to lean on..maybe its tym..

to my part time blogger : i will try my very best to stay clear from u don't worry!only if i have no one den i will find u..haha..i will try to wait for u but if its too long n opportunities come knocking on my door again n again, i will have to take my leave n hope that the risks that i take is well worth it..even if its not, im proud that i make that choice!so no regrets!being the great guy that u r, ur no longer in my league n i wont pin any hopes for us..for now, ur just a dear friend whose determination i reali admire n wish u all the best in ur future n dun waste this opportunity for anything,okie??

luv, Nadia J.

posted by nADiA JuMpJuMpJuMp at 1:52 AM