The last one from me. After which I will hide in seclusion. A lot of decisions I've made. A lot of decisions turned awry. This will be the decision which will atone for much of the past. Yeah... It's aggressive. I know. It had to be that way. Can't let a single bit of hindrance be in the way. In the way of my conquest for absolute power, dominance. Been treated like shit. Not given any respect. Been seen for the colour I am. Will try my best now to be superior over the arseholes that most of you all are. Not you my friends. Them. And their attitude.
And so it was. A levels that I'm gonna retake. What you may say? But that's what I gotta do. I've studied back then. But not study hard nor well. The basics are there. All I need now is to polish them up. If knowledge can be counted, currently, I know about 90% of my syllables. With most of them being 50-50 chances of being right. Lacking the finesse to finish it off, I will study hard and study smart to be 100% sure and right of the syllables. This time round, there won't be any mercy.
I've looked back to my secondary school days. Many of my friends were there. Some were smart and hardworking, some were just smart, and some were hardworking. Now, those who are hardworking managed to pull it off. Get into NUS, NTU, SMU and even one, King's College. One took double degree. Can be said that my class of 407 is a really smart one. Me included. But why am I here? And they are there? No use for people to tell me I am smart when I don't have the results to show for. Well.. This is the time to find out if it is just wishful thinking on my side. That I'm smart or no.
What is love? Love is unknown. Go explore them, love. And you will find that I'm just nothing. I can't give you love as how you want it to be. Love will be reduced to nothing. When you don't have spare changes in your pocket. Let me be the man I want to be first. To take care of my own self. Before I can take the responsibility of others. Sorry for being poor. But that's the facts of life. That we can never ignore.
Hey friend, you have been nice to me. Really, I appreciate it. The times we spent together. But I tell you that I love you. But you will never believe me. Losing you will be a pain. But it's momentary. I will find you when Adi's back. Rise high above the ashes.
